the most meaningless post ever

Apparently [It's been a while] is my typical intro so today I am not gonna skip this tradition. 

I do remember I named this blog sunshine was because I thought I could be positive everyday like the sun.

Life just kicked my ass and told me:"WHAT A NAIVE THOUGHT PEIRU BUT GOOD TRY ."

The sun of my life did not shine today

I am misspending my study week as holiday week as usual haha should I change my blog name to "The confession of a procrastinator"?? 

It's the thing about me. I always over think stuffs whenever I have free time.

Obviously there are something happened and I always have the same issue on different people. Maybe it's my problem duhh god knows why

"I'm not like them," they said.

I can't love people in the same way I used to love 'cause I'm afraid I will get hurt in the same way I used to get.

  

gap year

I've been convincing myself take a gap year to kind of discover what I want to study in the future
Like other teens I'm totally lost.
Taking gap year is actually not the stuff that Asians usually do as we consider it as wasting time but for me bacsially I've missed the application period so I was thinking why not I just let it be since I always believe that GOD DECIDES THE BEST
Okay I shall stop being too religious here
However I kinda scare that I will slack at home for a year time without doing anything because that is usually I will do hahah

For those who are considering take gap year I'm here to encourage you come on you only young once
Here's some link that might be helpful
Mind the Gaps
Should your child have a ‘gap year’ before college?
Okay I admit that I hope there's somebody support me to do it muhahaha
I was super depressed for the past week and I feel so sorry to those friends whom I annoyed
Duhhh I know y'all love me so you guys don't mind right:)
Speaking of friends and buddies actually thank you so much for the encouragements and advice I seriously cannot live without people's advice
in another words I cannot make any decision on my own I know I said this for a million times

Trial is striking me in a week time and I'm now posting stuff yes I'm a typical internet kid
but final is coming too which means I gonna disappear whole a whole month
Good luck for every single A2 student let's work the hardest and be the best batch ever

Life updating

spreading positivity today:D

Disappearing for weeks and now I'm back 
Well, it is simply because I am hella busy
Ikr non-stop saying I'm busy but I genuinely done nothing really productive
but then I gotta work hard now erhem I know I say this kind of stuff in every post haha

Lately people around me are busy applying universities seriously freaking me out
AND my families are already indirectly forcing me to make decisions as soon as possible
what actually make it worse is most of all the universities are september intake
It means if I missed the so called "applying period" then I gotta wait for another year 
Apart from that, A2 syllabus is super shiok 
can't catch up with lectures even though I do 'my type of revision' every day

I'm really having a happy new year as you can tell
New Year's resolutions is of course work harder and harder and harder
and also stay positive
Love life:)